Moses said to the Lord, “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.” -Exodus 4:10
I read this verse as I have been studying the life of Moses. It really struck me. I have said these words to God! When He told me to go out and spread His word, I told him just as Moses did, “No one will listen to me. I am terrible at speaking. I don’t even know what I’d say. I am sure you can ask someone to do that who is more capable.”
Yet, I quickly received God’s provisions. I was told about a great Bible study. My pastor gave me some used books he no longer needed. I found connections everywhere I turned.
Again, He spoke to me and told me I should write a book. Oh, good. Something I might be good at! Still, I felt doubt. What am I supposed to say? Oh, Lord! Can you speak up so I might not struggle with this so much?
Because I need to quiet myself, listen carefully, and obey. He will provide. The more I listen for Him and spend time with Him, the more I feel a stir in my heart. How could I hear Him when I was too busy chattering about my insecurities?
He is patient. Once I calm down and shut my mouth, I accept His Holy Spirit and allow Him to work in me and through me.
I’m not Moses. But I am imperfect like everyone else. Like everyone in the Bible who brought glory to God. It takes the admittance that I cannot do any of this alone and the acceptance that God will never leave me high and dry.